Tomorrow I start a month-long course to help me develop my own business. I have spent the past couple of weeks kind of dreading it, for a couple of reasons.
First, the hours. Full time! I haven’t done full time in years. No, wait … I’ve been doing MORE than full time with my child and home! I’ll miss her, and know it will be an adjustment for her, though she’ll be with her dad & nana when I’m away. Plus, those mornings and getting out the door …
My main worry, though, is over the basic premise: what is this business I’m trying to start, and do I even want my own business? A consulting business sounded great months ago when I first thought of it, but now I don’t know which of the different activities I proposed I actually want to do. Plus, there’s the whole “selling my services” to potential businesses: work and pressure.
However, this is the path I need to be on now. This is, as was pointed out by optimistic husband, a month-long chance to learn and develop a business idea that I’m actually excited about (to be determined), to get expert help in refining the idea, and to use this as a springboard for whatever comes next.
In other words, have fun and live in the moment. We can figure out the next step when we get there.
With this perspective in my heart, and my new year’s resolution to choose happiness in my head, I am going to do my best to be positive and get the most I can out of the coming month.
In preparation, I’ve vacuumed the house, packed a lunch, picked outfits for the week, and still have to meal plan, bake cookies, and pack my bag for morning. Daughter obligingly put herself to sleep at 5:30 (though she’s already woken up once), so I should be able to finish everything off in style.
I’ll keep you posted – have a great week!